In Search of My Passion

 

Today I was asking myself a question that I had asked so many times before. What is my passion? What am I passionate about in this world? Why have I joined Humanity Unites Brilliance? What am I looking for?

Then I realized, we are not taught to follow our passions. We live our lives with the thought of getting education and getting a job, and then working hard.

Nowhere during this path we are reminded of a simple truth. You are going to be happy only if you are following your passion and doing what you love.  How difficult can that be? Do what you love, follow your passion.

I can see two problems with this.

First, I have no idea what I am passionate about.
Second, even if I knew, most likely, I would not be able to support myself if I had followed it.

All I know is that we all have dreams. We dream about amazing lives – fancy cars, beautiful houses, breathtaking vacations, and status in our society.  When I say status, I mean – all of us want to make a difference in this world. We all want to help either relatives, parents, neighbours, animals, children, invalids or rainforests. We all want to be heroes.  No matter how much we want to have material things, we have this one thing, this one thought, somewhere deep in our hearts, that makes our eyes teary.

Yes, I do have a few of those, not just one.

I have come so far to make a change in my life. I grew up behind the iron curtain. I had accepted myself for who I was and survived the horror of coming out of the closet, which can be uncomfortable in North America but could be deadly in my country. Years of intensive work on myself, learning how to trust people, how to feel love and how to stop feeling guilty about everything I do (look, behave, think, say).

I was able to get myself out of that poisonous environment and start living. However, no matter how hard my life has been, it is not nearly close to lives of homeless people,  not close enough to what AIDS orphaned children experience, not close enough to children that are raped by their own fathers and relatives in belief that it will cure AIDS.

Am I Living my dream? No, not yet as I still don’t know what my passion is. I am still trying to do what I was taught – work hard and everything will be okay. However, by working hard I have to put aside things that matter to me.

I joined HUB because I see potential and I see dreams coming true – one dream comes true, then another one, and another one.  I have met people who are successful and they are living their passions.

HUB is just a tool, a vessel that is there to help you find what you are looking for.  I saw this lady who was sitting in the room and listening to what HUB does, the vision it is pursuing, listening about charities and non-profit organization HUB supports and endorses. She was just one of those people in the room. She heard about Pachamama alliance that fights to save Rainforests and aboriginal people who call rainforest their home. At the end she got up and said -  “I need help. I need help to host an event for Pachamama. I have no idea what exactly it is, but I know it touches my heart. I don’t know what I can do to save rainforest and those people who live there, but I want to do whatever it takes.”

Oh, this is what they call Passion! You feel connected to the idea, to the thought or to the feeling and you know – this is what I want to do. This lady is so passionate about Earth, forests, lakes, Mother Nature that she knew deep in her heart that it was time to take Action and follow her heart. She got up and committed to make a change in her own life.

You always get back more than you give. Yes, we all believe in helping and supporting the right cause and we give time, money, or our skills, but at the end it all comes back to us. Nothing is more important in this life as to feel content with who you are and what you have become or what you are becoming. Regardless what you do, it always comes back to you and either makes you a better person or degrades you on many levels.

Charlie Gay has a vision – to stop children dying from starvation, to educate and to support children that have lost their parents to AIDS. I support his vision and his passion, and in return he gives me an opportunity to find what my passion is and connect with people like me who can make my dream come true the same way as I am making his dream come true.

~ by Dace on November 3, 2008.